Sunday, January 5, 2014

I still have a reservoir of tears for you.


I'm shocked.

Sunday, October 27, 2013

I just gotta be strong enough to stick with the decisions I have made..no matter how hard.

Sunday, October 13, 2013

I wish I had a normal, pleasant, and happy relationship.

I'm just too damaged to have any feelings.. and it shows.

Monday, September 16, 2013

Scattered thoughts

My thoughts are as scattered as my emotions. I don't know how to think coherently anymore. Am I a mess? How do I become more simple minded?

Here's a list of a bunch of thoughts that are concurrently being triggered in my peasant brain.

Everything is going haywire.

1. I can't seem to find a good blogger template that suits my need. Should I just build my own?
2. This year's birthday is pretty much the worst birthday of my life. I've never felt so lost before.
3. My depression is buried underneath my pile of thoughts. I JUST SENSE IT LURKING AROUND. NOT SO DORMANT.
4. MaRLO is fucking god of trance.
5. I want a kindle for my birthday.
6. The barista over there is one fine cutie.
7. I'm so thankful for my friends...
8. I'm so jaded with my work.
9. My heart is rotten. Superglue no longer works.
10. I want to get out of this country.
11. I'm not a safe person. Everything I do has big repercussions and I know the risks. I know I would feel the remorse much later. People scold me because I can't stick to my words. I want to be mean but I'm too soft-hearted. What should I do? Should I do the cowardly and not say anything at all? Should I pretend that I'm okay with everything when I'm far from it?
12. You are the books you read, the experiences you have, and the choices you make.

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Monday, March 4, 2013

"u need love la myc"

I just can't believe that.. after so long...the pain.. it is still here.

And I still cry.. so much..

Even now.

It still hurts a lot.

How did I ... let you do this to me without realising it.

Sunday, July 1, 2012

i don't remember when you stopped making me happy and when i started feeling so unhappy..

all i know is... i don't get excited receiving your texts anymore.